hey guys... i just came on here to post one final post. the truth is that i have very deep depression. i know that by not telling you (mainly the people on here that i have grown so close to) i have betrayed you in a sense... i feel so horrible that i did not let anybody know. but, i HAVE to leave, and i have to tell you about it... so that i actually DO leave. don't think that the forums are the reason for my depression, but i have become so dependent on this forum that it is dragging me down. when you have depression you grab onto anything that makes you happy, to the point that it ends up hurting you... these are the first forums i ever joined. thats why maybe i have grown so attached. i became so close to some people on here... i know i attempted to leave in the past, but now i will. i have to for my own good... i spoke to a couple of doctors. it's not something to laugh about (even though it does seem a bit pathetic .. that i have to leave the forums)... my reading and writing problem, is in fact as i have learned a part of my depression. the forums are my get away... but are holding me back from healing. i will eventually die if i go on them... and i do mean that. see, strangely enough... they became my reality.

i know this all sounds crazy, and like i'm insane... but it is the truth.

i ask and beg you not to attempt to e-mail me... or ask me to stay. if you care about me at all, i beg you to let me go... and just allow me to leave being happy that i could partake in such an amazing community.

i will comeback to see if anybody replied... but i won't post anything more or reply to pms you may send me.

please just always be yourselves, cuz you guys are all great. i got to know so many of you so well.. lol...

i'll never forget you guys/girls
love,
Joa

p.s. i'm sorry this is in GCC, if it is an inappropriate place to post than i'm sorry, and please move it to T&T. althought i really hope that it can stay here so i can read it as a guest and don't have an excuse to sign in...

bi bi joa

we will miss you

sry to hear that...bye

* hexel waves to Joa.
Maybe we'll bump into you on the street..

That's depressing.... Will you still be on msn time to time?


I will miss you so much!

I'll miss you a lot, but maybe one day we'll talk again. I'll be thinking of you...

Love and hugs,
Tasha.

I'd say something but in the end it won't make any difference

Goodbye...

bye Joa, we will miss you

aww, i hate when we lose one of the good ones

good luck with your life joa

You've made such a big change in the forums, I'll agree with Leo, kinda saw it coming.


You've helped me through lots of tough stuff.  Thanks very much,
I'm gonna miss you, your one of the best people i've ever met on the
net, or met in general, you were always there, always someone to trust.

I'll make this very short and to the point...

It sad to read all that. But if you feel/know it would make you better, then by all means do what's best!!

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Originally posted by Joa
i'll never forget you guys/girls
love,
Joa

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Bye Joa , Good luck with everything

bi bi, sad to see you go...dont really know you much, but you are one of the nicest members, i can tell you have been having  a bad time but we are all friends here though it is on the inter web...

sorry to hear that
good luck and stay strong

Thanks for the cookies Joa, i'll miss you loads... look after yourself

maybe i was wrong before... maybe TODAY is global hug Joa day

*hugs*

I hope everything gets better for you. It's sad to know that you have to leave the forums, but if it's for your own good we'll let you go! I never got to know you personally... But you always seemed like the cheerer-upper.... the helper.... And the all around good person on the forums.

For this I think I speak for all of us when I say: Good luck with everything in your life. And we'll never forget you!

Something I wrote for you...



Friends are here when you need them,
Always there for you,
Whether your problem be small,
or big,
They will always understand.
Telling someone the truth,
Is the hardest thing to do,
The truth hurts,
And the truth helps.
A friend will understand the truth,
And understand your wishes,
Know that your friends will always be here,
No matter what,
Know that we still care,
Whatever you have to do,
A friend supports your every choice.
We wish you all the luck in the world,
In everything you do.



Just wanted to add, I am so glad I had the chance to know you. You always knew how to cheer someone up, and you always helped people no matter what.

Love and hugs,
Tasha.

To lose such a popular member of the forums is always sad. To lose a popular member who is not a guy is even sadder!!

I don't post here much, but I do read lots, and its sad to see you go. I've been there myself and you just need to make sure you do a bit each day that you know will make you better. It can be a long journey, but its one you need to make. I wish you well!

Jeronimo xx

Joa, in the past I've been in depression too, for years, and I can relate to your state of mind quite well. But from my own experience I can also say, sooner or later you will find strength to come out of it. Despite all the crap there is in life, despite all the cheerless moments.

I wish everything best to you, and goodbye.

I know that you are going to be missed a hell of a lot on this forum, you have bought happiness to a lot of people and cheered us up loads...

I'm sure we will all respect your wishes .

rather than PM you, you know how close we sorta got and no i don't think you betrayed anyone joa.  I'll keep it short, i wish you all the best in the future

bi bi joa
* dylan! hides in a corner

Been there, done that, and you have my deepest sypathies, althought you differ, in that this community was nearly the end of me... not the thing that kept me sane.

I feel really sad after reading this.. I wish you the best Joa.. you've always been a nice person to have around.. I hope everything goes fine for u.. and if u ever pass to mtl. dont b shy to pass say hi aight?

Take care of yourself sweetheart,
And enjoy you're life to the fullest

Good Bye Joa!!
BEST OF LUCK TO YOU!
I hope you will start feeling better very soon!
*hugs*

Oh my ...

Well, i wish you all the best and hope that you get better soon. You've been a great person in this community and it'll be sad to see you go.

Goodluck Joa, i know i will surely miss you

Keep your chin up girl

TD

i didnt know you too well, but i know you started quite a few threads worth readind, and really supported the community, i hope you suceed with what your trying to overcome and have some fun. we shall all miss you.

Hello Joa, I know how it feels. I used to be depressed. I know how painful it can be and I know what you are going through. You never betrayed anyone. Its totaly normal not to tell people about how you feel. Even to this day my parents never knew about my depression. I was very good at hideing it.

We are here for you like always, and so am I. If you ever need to talk about something, which I don't know if you will after reading your post but if you need someone I'm here. I think I added you to msn at one time.

What helped me through my depression is what I believe in. Now that’s just what helped me you do what ever you want. So I will pray for you every night until you get better.

Wishing you peace and comfort. I hope you get a chance to read this.

I hope everything will turn out fine for you Joa

Hey hun, I am sorry to see you leave. It's sad when you see a great member of our community say they have to leave for which ever reasons. Just remember that you have 10,000+ people wishing you all the best in life. We all love you and hope you may once again return to us.

Take care.
Love Lots

P.S. I hope I see you around one day on MSN, maybe even at one point have a Plus! Ontario Meeting .

Bye Hun and take care of yourself.

Love forever and Always
Matty

Bye Joa an Hope you get better real soon, coz we'll  all Miss you an be thinking of you,, Bye Bye Hun an take care of yourself,  HUGzzzzz

So like, we didn't speak much but I always found you a fun member here who put alot into the community.

I just want to wish you the best of luck getting through all of this, and hopefully we'll see you back around sometime soon.

Ninja!

By the way, i see no reason why this thread should be moved into T&T.. It can stay here.

Chris

can somene tell me how going on a forum for years make u depressed im not bein rude or anything but im just asking?

I never got to get to know you, you were here while I was not able to post on the forums. But if you must leave, and feel it will make you feel better, then I hope the best for you.

Bye babe.

bye bye Joa

* user44571 will miss you...
this wont stop me from getting the FBI to track you down...

Well, i had the chance to talk to you about this, so yeah... i told you everything i had to say

I'll miss you . But if it's for your own good that you have to leave, then do it . You are a wonderful girl, never forget that

Take care and good luck

Chrono.

PS: i still pwn you

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Originally posted by Chris Boulton
inja!

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Originally posted by joelm
can somene tell me how going on a forum for years make u depressed im not bein rude or anything but im just asking?

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Hello Joa,

I'm sorry if I'm rude, but you're being "weird"
Wait... you really are weird

I know the forums are really cool.
Same with you, these are the first forums I know.

It sure is a great loss for all of us.
You've been really nice and helped us in many different ways.
Anyway, I hope you get well soon, and then come back again

I hope I didn't say anything wrong
If there is, I apologize.

P.S.: I think I'll never forget your favorite emo:

Bye

yeh, we didn't really speak much, but i saw from your posts that your a nice girl , get well soon and have a nice life

Joa, I wish you the best in life and hope that all will turn out well for you. Never forget to keep that chin up and always have a big smile on your face. Take care!

These forums won't be the same without you!

DragonX

Wow its really sad to see this happen to such a great member
You are going to be widely missed by everybody who has seen you post, have a great life

I didn't know you that well, but I hope everything turns out okay in your life You'll definitely be missed.

Joa i hope that everythings gets better, some times life is like a rollercoster its was his ups and downs, and you always have friends to be with you when something its bad, well miss you a lot.

Bye

Good Luck With Everything. Bye Joa!!!

Sorry to hear that Joa .. But you are the right person to decide what you do. So All The Best .. Take care

We know you will come back one day... Our doors are open.... and remember the Username & Passowrd

Bye joa
We will miss ya

Hope all goes well for you

I didn't know you that well either, but i hope things turn out alright.

bye joa, you'll be missed. I hope everything turns out alright for you

Bye Joa, i hope you get better

bye , i guess we still have msn

will miss you

It nice that so many poeple are giving you support, well miss you...

OMG, i can't believe i missed this thread, now i feel bad.

Joa

One of the few new (female) members who was actually really good...i saw you becomming a truly good helper. Anyways, i hope you get well soon....all the best...

Hugs,
Sunshine

I didn't know you that well either, but I hope things go okay. I'm pretty sure things will get better with time.

xx

Its not isnane and ahrd to hapen at all.

I have myself felt way too addicted to this forums and internet in general, my save was that i had a 3 month vacation that i forgot about everything realted to comps and internet has i was having more fun than being on the PC all the time.

I still use most of my free time in the comp but now i realise there are better things to do and i feel like i live in two different worlds and i can get the best of both if i want to.

See what i mean? You need to have fun, try to find something more enjoyable and if you can, go to another city for some time ( to a relative home or something )

GL and see you..in the next life ( if you really really dont come back to the forums )

BTW, this shouldnt be a sad momment for us but a happy one, she is leaving but its for her own good, when she gets better ( and that means no depression anymore ) she will probably be able to come back without making this forum her life or something.

I never actually spoke to you alone once but i can see from the way you act that you are a kind and caring person and i'm sorry to hear this news good luck in life

I missed this thread also. Joa, I'm so sorry you're going through depression. Get well soon

omg i missed this thread too I hope you get better and thanks for always helping I hope you get better and read this message, and i speak for all of us when i say we will always remeber you and will miss you forever,
Bibi Joa, Now you have a whole world to discover,
And i wish you the very best.
ValSpy