Tasha, I've been through somthing simular in the way you are feeling (nothing is ever the same and everyone acts differently) I admire you for being able to seek proffessional help (I never could). If I have something to say that might help it's that you can't change the past but you can always make dreams and follow the steps to be where you want to be. By the sounds of it you have a lot of people supporting you (including me
). Hope everything goes well and sorts itself out for you.