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Originally posted by DJKAL
i cant go to see anyone

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why? no teachers? doctors? councillors?

i dont know why i just cant. when it all started i blocked myself off and kept myself and my thoughts and feeling to myself and i still dont tell people how im really feeling, partly because i dont know myself. it was a big mistake admitadley but i still stick to it and i cant see anyone and have been told to many times but still wont.

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Originally posted by DJKAL
i dont know why i just cant. when it all started i blocked myself off and kept myself and my thoughts and feeling to myself and i still dont tell people how im really feeling, partly because i dont know myself. it was a big mistake admitadley but i still stick to it and i cant see anyone and have been told to many times but still wont.

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No idea then. If you refuse to even TRY and be helped, you're doomed.

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Originally posted by LittleK
. If you refuse to even TRY and be helped, you're doomed.

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then im doomed!
i did try once, i spoke to my cousin, it's the only thing i regret doing - ever
i went into a mental state and i couldnt hear, walk, talk proply etc
i didn't sleep for 4 days constant!
i was walking into cars as they drove towards me because it didnt come to mind that they were there even though i could see them!
so i dont want to try again because i know i will be back like that and it almost killed me then and the way i go now i think it would kill me!

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Originally posted by beamy-kitty
Thats really sad ....Pities you..

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that post was about doing the exact opposite...

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Originally posted by DJKAL

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Originally posted by Millenium_edition
avoid music

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no can do! music is my LIFE {that and MSN}

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Originally posted by Millenium_edition
smile at people

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but but but .. youd look weird if you walked around smiling here because people just dont do it anymore

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MSN is your life? why? and you say you can't talk to anyone? maybe that's the reason why... i swear, msn ruins peoples lives. it blocks you off from real people and real relationships with them. yes, the person on the other side of the computer is probably real but they act different and you act different on a computer. everyone does.
    Maybe if you'd really like to get out of the rut you're in then get dressed and get out of the house. Meet People. Dont block yourself off from your family and society. I'm not trying to be mean but it's just a suggestion. Someone has to tell you, even if you dont listen. The thoughts of this will come back to haunt you some day and you might think you wished you tried some of the things people say. Don't give up, and DON'T say you can't. you can...if you try. maybe youre just not trying...


well anyways..i dont really wanna rant about shit from my life cause i've already made my share of those threads where i got GET A BLOG'd. but yeah, drugs, alcohol, crazy ass bitch, divorced, crazy ass bitch again...wash, rinse, repeat basically haha.


(fook yeah 1000 posts. )

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Originally posted by LittleK
    quoteriginally posted by DJKAL
    i dont know why i just cant. when it all started i blocked myself off and kept myself and my thoughts and feeling to myself and i still dont tell people how im really feeling, partly because i dont know myself. it was a big mistake admitadley but i still stick to it and i cant see anyone and have been told to many times but still wont
Littlek:
No idea then. If you refuse to even TRY and be helped, you're doomed.

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You know what? reading through this makes me angry at myself. I now understand completley what DJKAL was trying to say. My nan died two weeks ago (some of you might remember me saying stuff about how ill she was before) and i dont know what im feeling. I am trying to shut every singple person off and i cant seem to greave. Myabe its because its been a long time coming, either way, i cant feel anything. Any suggestions??

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Originally posted by LittleK
You know what? reading through this makes me angry at myself. I now understand completley what DJKAL was trying to say. My nan died two weeks ago (some of you might remember me saying stuff about how ill she was before) and i dont know what im feeling. I am trying to shut every singple person off and i cant seem to greave. Myabe its because its been a long time coming, either way, i cant feel anything. Any suggestions??

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it took me up untill about 2 months ago to 'get over it'. 2 years later since my nad and grandad died and 1 year after the other grandad died.
what has helped me has ben the purchase of a motorbike, working on that and being excited to get on the road. along with forcing myself to sleep properly (motorbike + no sleep = not good)
so, all i can try and say to help is that if you have something to enjoy, and takes time - like an enjoyable job or something similar. this will allow you to be too busy thinking about that, i know this seems like hiding your feelings, and no that doesn't help..it can get you REALLY down and even get to dangerous states of mind but it can be something small that will pick your life back up, could even be a friend or someone you know online. that's what it was that kept me going, a girl i'd never met before - and as things stand now..probably never will. but, i think it's safe to say sh saved my life and brought me back to 'normal'. i know this seems to be a lot about me, but i'm jsut trying to explain that life does get better, no matter how long the tunnel is at the minute, there is a light somewhere at the end.

just stay strong and take care of yourself. you do have people around you, some you dont know yet.