Shoutbox

hey guys... i just came on here to post one final post. the truth is that i have very deep depression. i know that by not telling you (mainly the people on here that i have grown so close to) i have betrayed you in a sense... i feel so horrible that i did not let anybody know. but, i HAVE to leave, and i have to tell you about it... so that i actually DO leave. don't think that the forums are the reason for my depression, but i have become so dependent on this forum that it is dragging me down. when you have depression you grab onto anything that makes you happy, to the point that it ends up hurting you... these are the first forums i ever joined. thats why maybe i have grown so attached. i became so close to some people on here... i know i attempted to leave in the past, but now i will. i have to for my own good... i spoke to a couple of doctors. it's not something to laugh about (even though it does seem a bit pathetic .. that i have to leave the forums)... my reading and writing problem, is in fact as i have learned a part of my depression. the forums are my get away... but are holding me back from healing. i will eventually die if i go on them... and i do mean that. see, strangely enough... they became my reality.

i know this all sounds crazy, and like i'm insane... but it is the truth.

i ask and beg you not to attempt to e-mail me... or ask me to stay. if you care about me at all, i beg you to let me go... and just allow me to leave being happy that i could partake in such an amazing community.

i will comeback to see if anybody replied... but i won't post anything more or reply to pms you may send me.

please just always be yourselves, cuz you guys are all great. i got to know so many of you so well.. lol...

i'll never forget you guys/girls
love,
Joa

p.s. i'm sorry this is in GCC, if it is an inappropriate place to post than i'm sorry, and please move it to T&T. althought i really hope that it can stay here so i can read it as a guest and don't have an excuse to sign in...

bi bi joa

we will miss you

sry to hear that...bye

* hexel waves to Joa.
Maybe we'll bump into you on the street..

That's depressing.... Will you still be on msn time to time?


I will miss you so much!

I'll miss you a lot, but maybe one day we'll talk again. I'll be thinking of you...

Love and hugs,
Tasha.

I'd say something but in the end it won't make any difference

Goodbye...

bye Joa, we will miss you

aww, i hate when we lose one of the good ones

good luck with your life joa