sorry for u man !!
i wish u the best
and i hope someone is near u, because the ultimate hurt in emotionaly, from deep of u, and ur asking ur self why i was chosen !! hope all around u, supporting in these hard moment, !! when u need each single grain of hope, hope they are giving u moral !! and ur discussing with them ur future activities , and adventures, dont worry man, life isn't just that much !! ur comming back !! to everywhere !! and in out heart ur will stay .
so what ever happens, we are waitting u
Good luck