Hello,
I inspire myself from
this post by Chrono, as a way to deliver myself from a heavy problem about moderation of a forum (to give some precisions, I am currently moderating a French speaking medical forum. I give this precision because if I don't give it, I may see from there that questions like "Are you talking about the moderating team of the MPlus! community forum ?" will arising. So I reply right from the beginning : no !).
Despite the post written by Chrono is located in the "Forum & Website" section, this topic fits more in the General Chit Chat. No offense Chrono !
To be honest, I am really tired of moderating the medical where I am a moderator. I am so tired and freak out that I need to take antihistamine to get some sleep, otherwise I would never sleep.
I'm not tired of the forum topic. Health is a such wonderful subject, involving everything I love : languages and transcultural, Internet, mental health (there is even a discipline called ethnopsychiatry, but I won't risk myself to give a lecture about it). It's such a endless field, not only about medical technic, but moreover about translating (for example, I started to write a translation analysis about translating into French the expression "Online Patient Helper", and I was analyzing what is the difference between a moderator and an Online Patient Helper). It's really so fascinating trying to understand the relationship between health and languages, and broadly the human being.
I'm tired of this feeling of being ill-treated by the administration and moderation staff. Since the beginning, I feel treated worse than a dog (even a dog won't be treated like that). At the beginning, it was only one of the administrator, but in the meantime, she has left (she is still a member of the staff, but she doesn't post any more as a staff member). Now, it's much more insidious than that : I have the bad feeling that I say one word, I make one thing, I am automatically disqualified and brought in front of a penal Court. I receive no praise, no kind word for my work, I receive only or no answer, or I receive only criticism, which is neither always justified nor purpose any solution to solve the arisen problems.
If someone else in the team makes a mistake, the other person will never be treated worse than a dog, or nobody will say nothing. For all these reasons I exposed, I feel treated unfairly and like I am walked all over me.
I feel that matters are getting worse since I have been diagnosed for ADHD since December 2008, it has been confirmed by another specialist in January 2009 and I have started to be treated for this pathology during this period. Another hypothesis to explain the matter is because I am the youngest in the staff. But I have no irrefutable evidences, only some clues (I have started to be involved in this project in February 2005, I was at this time 19 years old).
But whatever the reason, there is no acceptable excuse to be treated worse than a dog.
The worst fact in all this story is that a person in the staff doesn't like someone, this someone will be automatically treated like a dog. The legal responsible of the site permits himself once to insult another member in public.
Making some personal computer settings was a good way to escape a bit from this terribly heavy problem, however, it doesn't solve the pending issue. I have tried the solution not to come for a period, but the problem remained the same, and maybe even worsened.
I have no reason to volunteer in such a project which requests a lot of giving from yourself as a person to correctly manage the section I have been assigned to manage. I don't expect to be always congratulated by everybody, and I study any idea which comes from members or staff to improve what I am doing. But I don't accept being treated like a punching ball by the staff members, and not by anybody else.
I expect to be spoken with respect, even if we disagree each other. I expect from people to be honest in their manners and in their thoughts (for example, not reproach to someone else something we do or we have done without any reproach by anybody else).
Am I asking too much from myself and from the others ? Am I right to feel tired and disgusted with all these troubles, at the point to start damaging my own physical and mental health ?
What did I deserve to be treated like that ?
Is there any solution to start taking the path to solve this problem ?
Sorry guys for these long writing reams, but I am at the point to receive help from other people, and not only by the medical caregivers and my mother....
Thanks in advance for your replies
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