Shoutbox

hmm
well i guess everyone looks for looks and stuff, yeah dont deny it... :\ and everyone wants trust and the person to be nice and romantic and stuff. with looks its like...you may be with some half ass guy that isnt the greatest looking but then you see all their other features and then you just find them handsome/beautiful just because of the other features. for me they have to be nice, trustworthy, romantic, um all the other stuff boyfriend is. im young and shit and maybe its only my dumb half of my heart talking but i think ive found my bitch just because...its hard not to be away from him, and its hard for him to be away from me. we met like 3 years back and he left his then current girlfriend for me just to make me happy because we were like bestfriends and i had a crush on him and blah blah and he planned on leaving me but when it came to that point he just couldnt. then a year of being together past with breaking up on and off, another year passed the same way and the third year passed but it was better...we didnt break up a lot. and then all of a sudden he wanted more, so he left me but we'd always still talk about getting married and everything...it wasnt a relationship where you'd hate one and other after a break up, we'd just turn up the bestfriend side in us and then he got a girlfriend and i admit i was jealous and hurt and i told him that and he got kind of mad, but then we wouldnt talk to each other for a day and he'd come back and tell me how much he missed me and loved me and all that stuff but if we talked constant then it'd get a little bitter because of my feelings towards him. so this was just recently and he told me we'd always be "secret lovers" so he'd call me his girlfriendand stuff and i didnt mind when we were talking that little bit because it would give me that happiness that we always had and then just like...um...i forget what day, this week he came back and just told me how much he loved me and how much he hated to kiss his girlfriend because when he did he'd always ask himself "why am i kissing you when i want marissa?" so we talked last night about how he was going to leave his other girlfriend but it'll hurt him maybe and i dont want him to hurt because he's my bestfriend. i dunno...all that bullshit gives you some kinda sign, eh? maybe...maybe a year from now ill be bad talking him and shit...hm

sorry for posting my life story hahah.

k i love joa secretly...but SHH. and wacky, i love wacky.