I haven't had much interaction with you Tasha but what I gather from your posts and threads is that you are a strong individual. Everyone goes through some for of depression in their lives, I suppose yours is just a bit more severe. One thing you have to consider is that in almost every psychiatric doctrine, a healthy social interaction is considered a good thing. Now I'm not sure if forums fall into that category and that is something for you and the person who is helping you to decide, but rest assured that no one here is out to get you. I'm not sure if you are familiar with the saying "Birds of the same feather flock together" but really, that's the reason why we're here, we share some form of commonality and this is why you would never get shunned or rejected on here. The same goes with friends in real life, I have had similar issues with my family and the loss of people who I cherished a lot but speaking to people about it helped me, it helped me deal with the fact that I have no control over such things. I don't mean run out and tell as many people as you can, I'm sure you have your share of friends who you are really comfortable with and perhaps have grown up with, if you try you'll find support where you never thought it existed. Now, I'm saying all of this because I truly believe that what you are doing is really brave, if I was put into a situation that was similar to yours, I might not be as decisive as you, and I truly applaud you for that. I'm sure that you'll get through this, just take it one step at a time. Don't rush, things like these take their time, but you will heal Tasha. Be brave Tasha, we're all rooting for you. Get well and share some of your great artistic abilities with us, I for one would love to see more art from you.
P.S. I you ever need a shoulder to cry on (metaphorically speaking of course
), don't hesitate to IM me. I have PM'ed you with my email address.
Yours truly,
ipab.
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